I’m here for you. Whatever it is, if you need someone to talk to, I’m here. If you need someone to listen, if you need someone to guide you, I’m here. Whenever you need to vent & just straight up let everything out, my ask box is open. No need to worry, I won’t judge you. Whether its anonymously or you show yourself, I’m here to let you know I care & I want to help.
Sometimes you hurt me & then other times you make me feel like I can smile forever. When I’m with you, it feels much better than when I’m without you. Every time you hold me I want it to last forever & when you’re not with me i miss you & I’m constantly thinking about you. As much as I try to move on, you always pull me back & there’s time where i tell myself, NEVER AGAIN -_- but I really really can’t help it. i love everything about you & it feels like every little thing reminds me of you so i never stop thinking about you. No matter how much i try & I hate you for that, for making it so hard for me to move on from you because I know I can never do that. It’s like if i leave you, you’ll always have apart of me & its the best & worst feeling in the world </3
its been almost 6 months and the pain still feels the same </3 they say time heals everything but if that’s true why hasn’t this feeling gone away? i don’t know what it was that made me fall so hard for you, but that doesn’t really matter anymore. every moment we spent together, every kiss, every touch, every laugh, every hug, its fresh in my memory as if it all happened yesterday. i don’t even know why we ended. all i know is that i would give anything to have it all back </3 & no matter how much time passes, my love for you will never fade. as much as i wish i can erase the memories… erase you, i can’t & everyday it gets easier & easier to feel you forgetting me. its hard to tell where we’ll end up& it scares me to think we’ll fall completely apart one day </3 what hurts even more than loosing you was trying to pretend i didn’t care. i could’ve tried changing your mind, but i wanted to seem strong. i let my pride get in the way of fighting for what i want. i let you leave & that’s what still haunts me. even though we’re not together and your seemingly happy with someone else, i love you & i would never regret being with you.
- Crystal A. Cortright ♥
I want a person I can play video with, cuddle & watch movies all night with, play fight with, watch cartoons with, kiss & hold hands in public with, argue & make up with, have snow ball fights in the winter with, go to the beach in the summer with, take a bunch of cute pictures with, take naps with, oovoo at 3am with, have late conversations on the phone with, argue about how much who loves who more with, have changed relationship statuses on facebook with, laugh at good memories with, just someone I can be myself with. I’ll be wishing ♥
Dear Brain,
I know you may have A LOT on your mind & things always seem to get a little confusing. Sometimes things aren’t what they turn out to be. There are memories you are GRATEFUL to have & ones you wish you could erase. You’ve had some pretty UNFORGETTABLE memories & I’m pretty certain you may REMINISCE on times you enjoyed. You’ve thought plenty of crazy, and negative things most of your life, but you’ve also thought some meaningful & beautiful thoughts too. I know you’ve also made a lot of regretful decisions & you suffered the consequences of those mistakes but overall you shouldn’t live a life of regret. Things may seem a little out of hand sometimes & you feel like your whole life is going to come pouring down on top of you. But baby, don’t lose your head because I know you & I know how crazy you can get sometimes & even while all this chaos is unraveling, don’t be afraid to spread your wings.
Dear Eyes,
I know you see the world in your own little way. There’s A LOT you have seen for your age, some you wish you could erase, & some you are THANKFUL for. You’ve seen tragedies & you have seen many lovely things also & you know things haven’t always been easy for you. Most of the things you’ve seen have had an effect on you. BUT be strong my darling. Don’t forget that life goes on. Even though times are tough, don’t you ever CLOSE yourself so you won’t view reality. Open up. Don’t miss out on the beauty of life because the tragedy of it has caused you PAIN. Just remember, as life goes on it will only either worsen or get better but there’s no telling what can happen. So don’t let your guard down so easily. & for Christ sake just is THANKFUL for being blessed with WONDERFUL eye sight. BUT don’t be afraid to shed a TEAR :*
Dear Mouth,
God Damn you, MOUTH. You are something else. I know that you have blurted out many reckless & hurtful things. Things you wish you can take back. Things that have changed you life ever since. Sometimes you don’t seem to realize what you say can affect others. You’ve made people cry & made people LAUGH. You are sweet & sour all in one. BUT it isn’t your fault. Sometimes you get too out of HAND. & you are UNCONTROLLABLE. Even though this may occur often, don’t be so hard on yourself; it’s all UNDERSTANDABLE. & I’m so sorry for making you look like a BITCH sometimes. But hey, you’re not the biggest BITCH out there. So cheer up sweetheart (;
Dear Heart,
Oh, my beloved heart. You’ve been broken, shattered, torn apart, beaten, bruised, & scared. And yet it surprises me that you still have the strength to keep BEATING; for that, you are STRONG. I know you’ve had many different types of feelings. Some you’ve wanted to feel & some you just couldn’t help. There’s absolutely nothing WRONG with that. It just means you’re human. I know you have drowned in SORROW, & blossomed to HAPPINESS. You’ve suffered A LOT & you’ve been DAMAGED many times. BUT hang in there baby ; It’s just a phase & you’ll live to BEAT another second : -* you’re the only one who knows the true meaning of LOVE ; & I’m THANKFUL that you are able to feel it : -* Experience it . Embrace it; But I know once you stop BEATING, I’ll stop living;
- Crystal Cortright, with love
